Epilouge

So I speak to myself again through the ink of my pen and I seek to ponder once more. It is because I have more time. I have crossed the much busy marketplace and am now at the ends of my battle. But the war rages on. Certain resources from the previous battle survived and some were lost. New avenues will be called upon in this ongoing heresy. Yet I doubt any result coming out of it till the day the sun sets and the carnage is replaced by remorse for the fallen ones and the feeling of bewilderment about the origins of this tirade.
I felt not wrath
Nor the hand of God
Inside me I find solace
Rejecting what I might see
The boughs of a tree
Leaning beneath this weight
Constricted movement
Through the halls of know
Misty eyed and awed
By sultry works of no joy
Why heaven besieges me
Through joys utter unknown
Lest a mortal cry
Foul play is at hand.

Speculation

Speculation is the prerogative of all who experience time. It is not inherently bad or good like many other things. It is essential for all great men. While I do not explicitly believe in seeing the future, speculation is on the other hand a very versatile and handy tool. Speculation should be driven by information and a theoretical system. While to quantify it would take away its very purpose it should be regulated.

Career

Do not think that grief, tension, anxiety and angst will ever leave you. They are a prerequisite of being alive. They lend colour to life. They are life. There are many ways one can choose to live out his life. The one I shall discuss today is the career oriented approach. The choice can be put simply in the analogy big fish in small pond or small fish in big pond. Size has the benefit of proven processes and dependable sustenance yet it can be shown to have elements of stagnancy. On the other side of the spectrum we have potential for explosion yet it is but a potential. Who said freedom was easy.

Collective

Man is a social animal. No man is an island. He cannot be one even if he tries. The human race has to function as a collective in order to exist both individually and as a society. Our needs are entwined inextricably. What one man desires is what another one provides. Stability is achieved when these desires and provision achieve harmony. Perfection can never be achieved because as a group the collective can only be in a dynamic equilibrium.

Patience

Waiting drives everyone crazy. It is the balancing factor. It neutralizes the effectiveness of enjoyment and the boredom of burden. It is an art that can be mastered. I feel inclined to mention that patience is not always positive. It can lead to one falling into the trap of not acting yet it is necessary at times when one has to hand over the reigns of ones life to time.

Beyond

Going beyond boundaries is a theme that seems to drive mankind towards extinction. However one can never be really sure of what we will achieve. We are gifted with something that enables us to excel in the most extraordinary way. We create for ourselves perils and manage to create solutions to those perils but had we not created those perils we would not have needed to those solutions. I am inclined to think that progress brings with it the mandatory ugliness which can take the form of pollution, war, poverty. These cannot be eliminated. Doing so would result in a eutopian society where many would be at a loss to do anything simply because everything is so perfect.

Friends

Friends are not all at the same level. There are the casual acquaintances, the friends of friends, the colleagues and then there are the ones that matter. The ones that make you see life differently, the ones that offer you something that you yourself do not have, the ones that are different, the ones with whom you can form a circle, a perfect circle.